change of plans

so this morning i was supposed to meet up with dan for breakfast and then go to disneyland with josh.  but instead i woke up feeling sicky so i did neither of those things.  i'm sad to have not been able to see dan this visit but hopefully i will see him soon.  i miss you dan!

what i did do, was sleep in until nearly the afternoon.  then i watched lady in black, tangled, up and ate some tacos.  this evening i went for a run.  i ran from my house to the park.  which i think is the furthest solid distance i have ran since i was running on a regular basis.  which was nice since i haven't ran in a couple months.  i've mostly been walking hills.  but diane says when she comes to visit she wants to go running a lot so i feel like i need to get ready for that b/c i don't want to die while she is here.

anyway, i ran to the park and then relaxed in the grass for a while thinking about mostly nothing.  i looked at the stars and thought a lot about how i wish i had a twin.  i don't know that i'm ever going to get over that.

when i got home my legs were very tired.  but not so much the rest of me.  please check in on my running progress... b/c seriously i might die when diane is here if i don't get ready.

that's why a bear can rest at ease

today i'm just going to wear pajamas and watch disney  movies.  as soon as i get out of bed, that is.

i wish we had a better trade school system in the united states.  most of the trade schools we have are super expensive and generally don't have great reputations.  the government should help fund some trade schools in addition to colleges. 

i've never been paint ball-ing.  and i have zero desire to do it. in fact i thought everybody stopped doing that in like 2003.  but maybe people are still doing it.  you know what i do like?  laser tag.  it's pretty hard to get hurt playing laser tag.  but i feel like it's a guarantee that you will get hurt playing paint ball.  also, i just don't understand what the point is.

ok i got distracted so that's the end of this.

fact

"The world bursts at the seams with people ready to tell you you're not good enough. On occasion, some may be correct. But do not do their work for them. Seek any job; ask anyone out; pursue any goal. Don't take it personally when they say 'no'--they may not be smart enough to say 'yes.'" -- Keith Olbermann

spice up your life

i'm currently 136 people over my self imposed friend limit on facebook.  my friend limit is 150.  so i'm almost double my limit at this point.  some times i get stressed out about it b/c i like to stress out about things that really, really don't matter at all.

when people see me these days they say "look how tan you are!"  i've gotten pretty tan... i have never, ever been this tan in my entire life.  i'm not totally sure what's going on or what has made my body decide it would like to be tan now... but that's happening.  and in all reality i'm not actually that tan, i'm just tan relative to how i have always looked in the past.

today on my way to work i was really craving peaches.  nice soft peaches.  i also wanted to sit in the grass and look at the sky.  do you ever just want to do that?  i feel like that doesn't happen enough in my life. and i often find myself wishing for some grass to lay in. also, i miss fireflies.  if anyone in virginia (or anywhere else with fireflies) is feeling kind you should record some fireflies for me.

who wants to go camping?  me too, so let's go!  i have a four day weekend (probably) in early june and i wanted to take a trip to utah but it's looking less likely that it is going to work out. which is really a shame b/c there are awesome people in utah that i would like to see.  but that's life.

yesterday i was listening to npr and they had like a half hour segment on ticks.  the moral of the story was ticks are nasty and also be scared all the time, everywhere you go.

kevin comes home from his mission in like two months (or maybe it's three?  i just like to pretend it's right now).  i can't believe it's nearly been two years.  that seems just crazy to me.

taken about one million years ago.  or at least it feels that way.

 time flies, i guess.  whether you are having fun or not.

roger told me i'm cute today and it made me happy so i would like to record it so i can always look back on this day with fondness.  he said 'did i ever tell you i always thought you were really cute?'  he followed that up with 'in no way am i hitting on you or anything, i just thought you might want to know.  in case you forgot or something.'  you are all welcome to second his opinion of my cuteness.  because, seriously, i'm adorable.

it's almost time for katie's wedding!  congratulations, katie!  i love you!  katie has always been a wonderful friend, so patient and kind and always willing to listen and share.  christian is one lucky dude!

1. my brain can be very obsessive. 2. i enjoy when you meet someone and it feels like you have been friends always.  i feel like that is rare but it happens every once in a while.  in other news, why do i mostly have guy friends?  would anyone like to offer insight on why they think that is?  especially you guys.

one final note, let's all skype!  i miss you!

why i need to make friends in california...

if you leave clothes at my house, i will dress pillows up and pretend they are you.

i call him michaeltwo

 guaranteed.

ps i'm totally hoping this is still funny and not creepy when it's not almost 3 in the morning.  because right now this is comedy gold to me.

in the california sunshine

my favorite beach in laguna!  we saw dolphins.

we don't know where bunnies keep their ears.

it was a loooooong day.

waiting for world of color with the funnest people.

i love having visitors!  michael came to town with some of his friends from work. and i've adopted them as my friends.  it was awesome to have them here and i had blast and i'm totally exhausted now.  tonight i get to see susan, from comedy sportz richmond.  and this weekend dan will be here.  this is like seriously the best week EVER.

if you haven't been watching dance moms: miami, you need to start right now.

happy seis de mayo!

happy seis de mayo everybody! 

seis de mayo is the day we celebrate our past mistakes and look forward to a future where we are a little wiser and more experienced.  and when i say we, i mean me.  and when i say wiser, i mean meh, i'm doing my best. 

the first seis de mayo was celebrated in 2006, in commemoration of may 6, 2005 when i was in la by myself and i broke my foot at a certain improv theater which shall remain nameless.  and since then we take some time on the sixth of may to reflect on the mistakes of yore... not to punish ourselves but to learn, to laugh and to grow.  this holiday is still in it's developing stages but will only grow with time.

do you have a seis de mayo story you'd like to share?  hmmm?

one of this year's mistakes?  dying my hair brown.  dying my hair brown is fun for about 3 weeks... and then i spend months crying about how expensive it is to get my hair back to it's natural color (which still hasn't happened except at the ends and the roots... i'm claiming it's very subtle ombre).  or how about when i had my nose pierced for like a month?  that was pretty silly.  and also awesome.  hahaha.  really what i learn at the end of every seis de mayo is that my mistakes make me who i am and sometimes i just want to high five me... even when i'm being a ding dong.

i'm a big believer in making up holidays with your own personal significance attached to them.  because most holidays are ridiculous anyway, so why not have ones that are you own brand of ridiculousness?  in addition to seis de mayo, i also celebrate turkey boxing day.  turkey boxing day happens the day after thanksgiving.  and it is the one day a year i can eat leftovers without feeling poor.  and who can forget cheap candy monday... the monday after easter when all the candy is on clearance.


in other news, i'm about to tell a story that seems depressing but it really isn't.  so last night i had a dream that i was back in virginia and i was at comedy sportz and i was having to say good bye to all my friends again.  if i haven't said this lately, i love the people at comedy sportz in richmond... a lot.  i've never in my life known people who were so interesting, vibrant, genuine and good.  anyway, in my dream i was saying good bye and i was just crying and it was so sad that it woke me up and i was crying in real life. when i realized i was awake it just seemed so odd to me.  that something that was happening in my dream was so sad and so real that i would actually physically start crying in my sleep.  not because i'm actually sad about the thing but b/c the imagining of it was so real.  i mean, it's not that i don't miss my comedy sportz family, i do.  but i'm not actively sad on a daily basis about being gone. i don't know that this made any sense.  i guess the point i'm trying to make is that our imaginations are very powerful things.

side note: my comedy sportz family is comprised of some of the absolute most interesting people i have ever met.  i don't know if it's just something in the water or what but i swear they're just more interesting than the people i meet anywhere else.  from now on i'm going to use this as the reason why i think basically everyone i meet lately is lame and i'm going to stop feeling bad about it.

why'd it have to be tourists

as a point of information, i do not care one iota about star wars.  also 3-d things make me sick.  not like the world and everything around me but 3-d movies and rides.  also i can never make those magic eye picture things work.  what does that say about me?

a few weeks back we were going on the indiana jones ride.  at the beginning your car selects one of three prizes you can find on the ride.  the options are treasure, the fountain of youth or knowing the future... i think.  though now that i say that i'm not actually certain that the last option is the future but i think it is.  anyway, we were discussing the which one we would want the most.  i said i would like the fountain of youth b/c then i would have more time to do all the things i want to do.

what would you pick?  hmmm?

knowing the future reminds me of the movie big fish.  the boy meets a witch and if you look into her eye you will see how you die.  and the character says something along the lines that if you knew how you were going to die on one hand it could mess you up b/c that would be all you would think about, but on the other hand you would know you could get through everything else in life.  which brings me to this: the thing about icebergs is...

they are repaving a street or putting a new roof on one of the buildings near my house right now.  the moral of the story if it smells TERRIBLE AND I WANT TO PASS OUT.

is it time for the la fair yet???  i love that fair!

may the fourth be with you

james wanted a picture with the jaguar and this was the best we were able to do.  i think it was a good try.

 last night i finished book four of the game of thrones series.  this book was a serious let down.  i really enjoyed the first book and the second one was ok and i wanted to find out what happened to the characters.  by book three i had more or less checked out (in fact i took a month break to re-read the first four harry potter books) and only cared about 2 or 3 of the 872 characters in the series.  but after this last book, i'm done.  the characters i cared about weren't even in the book and the one character i cared about who actually was in book four is now boring.  i'm going to assume all the characters just get killed and life is terrible forever in their world.  besides, the guy still has at least two more books to write before he finishes the series... and i'm going to wager that he passes away before he finishes writing them (he's pretty old and it takes him like five years to write each book and i'm guessing he has no idea where he's going with the books so it might take him even longer).


these days at work we're only working 3 days a week.  which is pretty much terrible for money.  but i got to spend the last few days out with brittany's family.  we went to the la zoo and saw lots of animals and ate circus cookies.  we went to the mission in ventura and the ventura county museum.  we also we went costco for lunch one day.  oh and i had a donut!  they have a new cat (a lost kitten who showed up at their door step during a rain storm last week).  it's a very sweet cat and loves to sit next to you and be pet.

my lap is the best place to sit while watching tv, i guess

 i want to go running but also i really, really don't.  i'm a baby and i mostly only like to run on moist dirt.  and that's not really an option around here.  richmond was good for running in some ways... and terrible in others. it is good b/c it has nice trails.  it was bad b/c there are no street lights and no side walks and it rains a lot.  anyway, that's the story of that.

there is a lot of accountability in the knowledge that your life is the way it is b/c you have chosen it.  i've been thinking about that a lot lately.  i mean, we don't always pick what happens to us but we always decide how we respond.  it's an interesting point to think about.  also, when i start getting sad about things, i tell myself well, you picked this so figure it out.  also, it reminds me that i'm free to pick other things if i decide that's what i want.  as i always say, the great thing about having your own mind is you can change it whenever you like.

side note, the renaissance fair i worked at years and years ago opens 5/12 and runs until mid june.  let's all go!  if you come to ca in late may we can go to disneyland AND the fair.  i'm looking at you, michael.

so everybody keeps asking me if i'm going to go see battleship when it comes out.  i super love playing battleship but i have no intention of watching a movie based on the game.  however last night i saw a billboard for the movie and it was like coke zero and battleship forever.  and i was like YEEEES.  coke zero and battleship are pretty much two of my most favorite things in the world right now.  but i'm still not going to watch that dumb movie.  and that's that.