Saturday, May 28, 2011

beeeee beeee boop

we have this company out here in virginia called relayfoods.com. they did a groupon and through some awesome planning i got $50 worth of groceries for $10. basically how this company works is you order your food online, they provide items from local farms and bakers and such and then you meet a truck in a parking lot and they give you the goods. i just made pork chops, sauerkraut and sausage from the food i got today. it turned out delicious. i'm totally letting the food take the credit for dinner being delicious b/c i've never made pork chops before and it's after midnight... so it totally wasn't me.

i've been watching 500 days of summer obsessively. if you haven't seen it, do that right now. i saw this movie for the first time a few months back and it convinced me to get bangs cut into my hair. i would usually watch it every couple weeks. but right now i'm watching it at least once a day. it's a good get you over heart break movie. once i stop feeling like i need to watch this every day then i will know i'm better.

yesterday i pulled out my old high school drama notebooks and read an entire year's worth of journaling. i started b/c i was feeling very sad but after a few pages i realized that it was hilarious. and then i pulled up getmortified.com and submitted for an audition with the dc chapter. so that i can read these journals on stage for other people's enjoyment. i was telling someone about this tonight and they were like why would you want to do that?! but really it was 10 years ago. i don't think it matters. it's just funny at this point.

the new job is going well. i've started settling in. actually i moved my stuff into my office today. i also got some chalkboard paint and turned one of my walls into a chalkboard. really at this point it just looks like i painted the wall black. one of my coworkers walked by and i was like uhhm what made you pick black? i'm sure they all think i'm out of my mind but what's new, eh?

my favorite mental image right now is the idea of a person drinking wine out of the bottle through a crazy straw.

i think i'm going to get my hair colored brown.

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

new cup, new cup!

real fast:

i got a new car. it's a honda fit. it' dark blue. i love it.

i got a new job. i'm the sales manager at the aloft. it's working out ok and i haven't missed dave & buster's one single moment.

the same guy is around and it just gets more and more complicated. why is being a grown up like this?

i'm excited for memorial day weekend. we're doing a beach trip and i'm going to think about nothing the entire weekend! woo!

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

just another manic... tuesday

ok i'm going to be self esteem-y here for a moment. it's my blog so i can do whatever i want. feel free to go away now if you aren't on board.

last saturday was my first comedy sportz show. i feel like it went alright. not as great as i would have hoped but i didn't vomit on anyone or run off stage crying. i even got out two 185 jokes (so what if they were both on the suggestions of shoes... it's something). this idea that it didn't go fabulously was only further solidified in my mind by the fact that a couple people asked me the absolute thing worst thing you could hear after a show:

"did you have fun?"

this is theater code for 'i have nothing good to say about what just assaulted my eyes for two hours but i don't want to squash this poor fool's dreams.' the only thing worse is when someone tells you that you looked pretty in your costume.

at any rate, i checked the show schedule today to see if i would be working show support (box office) this weekend... and i'm playing friday and saturday night.

so either it didn't go as badly as i thought it did or the artistic director thinks i enjoy acting a fool. either way, i'm way more nervous about this weekend's show than i was last weekend. i already am in the 'i think i'm going to vomit, sweating profusely, can't make sentences' stage of my anxiety. i'm so excited that i get to be like this until the weekend. yay!

in other news i'm in the process of purchasing a new vehicle. the forenza's engine died. she is gone now. when the man took her away on the tow truck i thought i might cry or be sad. but i wasn't. it kind of made me feel like maybe i'm a robot. but i guess robots don't vomit at the idea of not being able to think of jokes. unless, you know, it's that kind of robot.

Monday, May 2, 2011

freedom day

i've decided that today is freedom day.

here's what i have to say about the death of bin laden:

in no way do i think this makes the world safer. things are only going to be more dangerous especially these first few months following his death. that's not what this is about.

to me it's about a sense of unity in a country that is so often divided. it's about feeling like there is some control in a world where a man can order people to take planes and fly them into office buildings. today was a day to reflect on the horrific events of the last 10 years. a day to have closure on the the memories we have all been carrying around with us. it was a day that for the first time i was able to say do you remember the news footage of people falling from the upper stories of the world trade center? do you remember the people covered in ash running from the falling towers? do you remember the little girl crying on the news holding a photo of her father asking people to call in if they had seen him?

i remember those things. they were horrific. they were scarring. i was 17 when 9/11 happened and it has affected the way i view the world. and it has defined us as country for the last ten years. as much as we like to pretend this hasn't changed who we are, it has. i doubt there is one among who doesn't watch others in the airport looking for the left behind bag.

anyway, i guess my point is just that for me today was a day to have a little closure to a tragedy that has hurt in my heart for a very long time now. and i'm sure many others feel the same.