gypsy

lauren showed me this song.  i've always been part gypsy.

the other day a friend asked me when i was going to start doing something that was more my pay grade.  i've come to think of my time in california as an extended vacation.  it's funny how a lack of responsibility  makes you unaware of the passage of time.  it has also made my skin clear up, drop some weight, tan up a bit and think about the things i do and do not want.

mostly i've realized that i will never be happy in an office job.  or anything that focuses the work day around a computer.  but i also need a job with concrete goals... i way to measure whether or not i am succeeding.  i need interaction with people (people who are uplifting and intelligent), whether it's coworkers or clients.  i also need to be in a place where there are people who are smarter than me (disneyland has definitely taught me that it is kind of terrible to always be the smartest person in the room.  i know, that makes me sound like a jerk but YOU DON'T KNOW ME and, more importantly, you don't know my coworkers).  i prefer a non-traditional schedule and to be working more than i'm not.  i've also learned that i can get by with little and really the only thing i miss is the money to travel (though it may have been wise to save, i am so glad i traveled when i lived on the east coast... the memories and experiences are worth way more than the money will ever be).

in conclusion, i believe a sales / marketing position for something i am passionate about is probably the route that will make me happiest.  now i just need to figure that out at some point and i'm golden.

in other news, i rode a bike yesterday for the first time in ages.  i didn't realize how much i had missed it.  at some point i need to save all my pennies and buy a bike.  i'm not in a terrible hurry since chino hills is just about the worst place for trying to ride a bike, with all the hills and terrible drivers.  but i probably won't always be living in chino hills, simply judging from my history of living places.  anyway, as we rode through the neighborhood in fullerton, i felt like i was living in a movie scene and that surely joseph gordon levitt would pop up shortly.  he didn't but it was still a nice moment.

i'm a mistake maker.  i believe in making mistakes and making them often.  but i also believe in acknowledging your mistakes.  there is hardly anything in this world that i hate more than a person who never  is willing to admit that they have made a mistake or pushes the blame off on other people.  here is a thing people should practice saying "yes, i made a mistake.  what could i do different in the future?"