i haven't posted in a while. i suppose i've been "busy". busy is the word i use when i don't actually want to explain what's going on (not that anything is going on in particular... it's just boring). feel free to call me on that in the future.
i wanted to post a link for
Terry's blog so there it is. that links to an article of her's i read yesterday that i found very interesting. terry is dave's wife. dave is the artistic director for the comedysportz in richmond and i love them both dearly. i wish i could be them when i grow up. anyway, i thought the article was interesting.
this will make more sense after you read the article but my thoughts from it were that what i find most difficult from walking away from a dream is other people's reactions. for the large part, i don't mind changing direction in my life. i'm probably one of the few people who doesn't hate change (or is just that people who hate change are just so vocal about it?). in fact, i love change. it's often painful and scary but i guess i'm into that. but it seems when you decide to change directions there is always someone standing there ready to say "but what about such and such plan you said you had?" my outlook on it is summed up in something i say regularly... the great thing about having your own mind is you can change it whenever you want.
and i do. i was thinking about this yesterday. trying to draw the distinction between being a quitter and knowing when to walk away. i think it's really about knowing your motives behind leaving. and sometimes it's not that a dream isn't still cool or fun it's just that something else becomes more important.
i was also thinking about being wrong yesterday. hahaha. just the other night i had something happen and i realized i was totally wrong about something and so i admitted it to myself and then to the person who i had convinced to believe wrong things with me. that's a far more complicated way of saying what i was trying to say but oh well.
this is one of the traits that i'm really glad that i have. i know that i'm often wrong and i'm willing to admit that and then make the changes that need to be made. i don't think there is anything wrong with being wrong. it means you're thinking and making choices. and as long as you keep thinking and making choices eventually you will get somewhere. to where exactly i don't know. i'm working on it i guess... give me some time. i just know that you get further in life by deciding things and trying it out than just sitting around doing nothing.
the other day i was thinking it must be fun to be a southern baptist and then i realized that everything i know about southern baptists is based on country music... mostly that song "what i love about sundays" or whatever it's called.
i've been thinking about dudes lately and trying to come up with a list of things of looking for. here is what i've got so far:
hard working
kind
direct
doesn't flip out over small things (like when plans change or things don't go right... b/c plans always change and things never go the way you expect them to and i can't take the stress of a person who doesn't know that)
and i suppose that is it so far.
sunshine should be having her kittens any day now. kittens!
